3 days didnt blog

hmmm this few days noe u went to frezer hill
u take alot picture can see u enjoy the trip
u been when throught alot

but until today just now, saw u post couple hmmm
i think alot, izzit got someone chase u???
are u love him???

but i'm still single and waiting for it^^
i will do wat my parent say
try my best to chase u back once again
no matter how u going suffer with me again
but i will give u the best
like last time,

but i will be a good husband lol
a give u welfare money life^^


hmmm
this few days out with friend
but bad news is i still cant control the drug feel
sometime really need u beside me
let me hug all that

but i noe is cant
u leave

we been break for 14days
i been nightmare for tat long
hmmm
i keep dream u been run away from my dream
i chase til tired
but i still chase

when i awake always is 4 o'clock and 6 o'clock

but i need to tahan dont find u until u find me.

i miss u mummy, i really love u deep



do u?
i noe again u not love me,wont with me again ....

cause ur parent no matter how i change u still wont accept me....

haizzzzzzz

610

today she wish me

i dont noe why she wish me when next 3 days i wanna marry
seriously i really turn sad, turn unhappy

but i wan let u noe... i wont marry again, i just will love u and waiting u alone
and i dont noe why u will angry me for wat lol

i just wan u tell me please dont marry can u?
i just wan this answer.... why i cant get it from u

bee i really miss u care me protect me lol

my heart one by one really no mood again lol

i wan when u call me use wife voice talk to me again lol

bee can u???

i wan the warm feeling, not the cold feeling

i miss u alot

a ring tat i wear^^

thanks for reject me^^

but this time i really let u aloone le

i cant continue protect u le^^

when u need dear beside i'm not beside le

remember o... my heart never let u alone

cause i still loving u deep

i really will miss u

bee

u noe u need me
u noe u care me
u noe u miss me

but i dont noe why all this i feel tat u loving me still

haizzzzzz.......u think u not love me than no love ba^^

let u hate me ba
u wan how than how ba
u treat me cold than cold ba

as long as... kelvin never appear ur front anymore^^
when u see me not the last time kelvin le
is forget who u are de kelvin le

if u cry mean u still love me
if u no cry means u not love me le^^

this is love reaction when u missng some one u love in ur life u will cry

bee
now u noe why i will take back watch ring and picture le ma?

i need u
i care u
i wan u
do u marry me?
do u love me?
do u need me in ur life?
do u need my smile that apper ur life?

i noe all is no^^

is ok... hahaha

after 12 o'clock, i return a blank guy
if u love me, than marry me....
find back oour love soul

i noe no again^^

hahahaha

so stupid i am

hahahhaa

k ba........ bye my most loove in this world de amanda^^

i going surgery le^^

say bye bye to ur kelvin lover ba^^

all 3 years memory will gone le^^

why i'm crying hahaha

stupid^^

bye

603

a surgery today is brain

my brain surgery maybe will lost ur memory,
this i ask for it^^

but u rather i forget u...
actually i wan u to take care me, and love me back,
try to make me think back u once again....

today the surgery is brain, maybe will forget our memory
i dont noe what will happen to u and me

i really forget le...
u must take care urself really nicely...
ur body stand as my body le...
ur heart stand as my heart
ur soul stand as our family soul

son call vic ( 3 years old)
daughter call gwen (5 yeard old）

hahaha.... i wan close u cause i wan u back ben dan...
i wan u beside me like wife take care me

this maybe is my last blog le gua
cause today finish work i will go pahang le^^

wish u have a good life,
money if u wan can sms me... my assistance will bank to u^^

dont worry
if i didnt lose memory i still choosing wait for u
if i really forget it, but my heart still have u also^^

bee i really happy with u gather eat^^
i choose didnt tell u caues i wan u noe i dont wan u woorry it^^

i marry le
my wife is amanda aw wai ling^^
so my wait for u to return again^^

i love you^^
dear kelvin ur lover


memory tiamo lavender
dont noe i sleep surgery can dream u or not leh...
or i can dream lavender^^

if i dont hve life back^^
i hope u can stay wit my sooul^^

this time i really got danger with surgery le^^

i noe u wont worry me le^^
but i noe u still love me^^
just wan stay far from me,
cause u dont have a true smile with u
even with ur friend^^

but i tell u i wan u keep album cause i write de stuff same as the couple picture^^

all picture i have keep^^
when i awake my assistance will sms u^^
tell u what happen on me^^

if dont wan she wont reply le^^


love you, my mummy^^
this time is my last time calling u le








god: pls dont let my girl sad alone, let her find a true love with rich and she love her as well^^
but i hope if can i wan change my soul to give her good life^^
if can i wan change my memory to let her freedom without suffer with our memory^^



bee" i wan u keep album cause i wan u keep our memory, when he bully u take out see me ba^^
if really wan back to me, my banting house always free for u to come in^^
mucksss^^

last blog loving u, missss u , always love u, my amanda aw wai ling.

i will write my blog password and facebok at dairy, when i awake at least i can open it our memory^^
if i lost memory^^




bee love u remember.... dont do a work tat about wine or beer, i dislike my wife wear too sexy let others see, i rather u wear it nicely and be with u^^

remember wat u are promise me, u didnt change just need care and friend beside^^

if got anything u change pls let me noe k^^
sms me or call me^^

602

go Hospital near Pahang River Pahang for small surgery

brain- brain got a black dot, tat is a cancer, but can cure easily ...tat dot make my eye cant see clear
backbone- nerve collection having problem, need readjust, and need injection with 17cm into backbone put medicine damnnn pain

finger need massage but is pulling finger very hard huhuhuhuhu

this the report from the hospital...

so backbone cant recover much,
brain can cure clear
finger cant cure anymore


reason:
working over night, didnt let brain eye finger body rest well, always standing and drive car with long timer, brain cause hit some sharp part,
finger is tat time at chef college the sugar kena so make no energy anymore, cant carry heavy stuff, so will make it shaking... need sleep more

sick- 4days didnt go see doctor = =
cof til wan vomit: hou long got one bijik stuff inside,, need take out, but hard

brain surgery: danger only got 40%
finger: cant cure
body backbone: 30% danger

so this is my report le, hmmm

body getting bad hahaha^^

happy call 1.20am

just now u suddenly call me i really happy with.....

i go pahang for body check up.....

dont worry i wont do bad stuff or leave u alone in this world

hmmm bee... dont moody with ur life le k^^

i can hear for it... ur sound unhappy with it....

and make sure u really take good care urself....

dont like me.... alot sick jor^^

ben dan i love you^^

dont treat me cold....

i will scare this feeling

and always will come u back home

600

doctor report

today i go pahang actually is go do body check up

firstly at subang check

backbone -injury ( muscle pulling the bone down) if no surgery will make backbone cant even ban
eye - eye almost cant see when 4 years past...( white ball cells is decrease, cause of working)
finger -keep shaking more worst...hand slowly turn cold
brain- easy to forget last few hour stuff
blood- not very active

so they ask me go pahang check using machine
hopefully can come back early meet u^^

Feeling Stranger

we been long time didnt sms each,
today i sms u, when we talk just can feel u dislike touching phone anymore...

hmmm.... been read ur blog as well... i feel u more lonely... i feel to hug u quiet

u make til urself much more lonely...

why my sweet heart choose this way...

i noe money really important with...

but now u become money more important than love even take over ur soul

bee i hope u can return to our warm house...

i rather u back... dont wan u cold at outside...

tomorrow i date her out for lunch,

to take back our memory

1st anniversary ring

couple picture

and two watch

ring i wan take back is i wanna wear it tell other i'm marry

couple picture is keep inside my wallet

two watch is i wanna have the feel she beside me

cause she wear before touch before

hope tomorrow we wont quiet 

at least she talk to me and asking me

if not i scare i will wanna hug her and ask her back again...

cause i  over love her... until i can stay behind and protect her

am i stupid???

yes i am, this the one who call kelvin tan chin hock

why i wanna do this???

cause i wan bring her back home once again

but she wan alone???

yes i noe, but i wan give her warm again

but u noe wont success right???

yes i noe, at least i try all my best

why???

no why, just love her

all this question my friend keep asking me...

they just telling me...

this girl will be regret tat giving up this guy who call kelvin tan chin hock

but i tell them

i'm the one who wrong,

just noe how to earn money

without care my wife,

let her alone staying at house lonely until she really need me

where am i???

working, sleep

i such a fucker, u all noe it???

i'm not a good boyfriend tat wat she love...

should i slowly let her go???

cause i noe she wont back again T.T

i telling myself alot time

wat should i do???

dont view her facebook???

i cant do it, i miss her much, over care

dont find her???

i cant i wan noe wat she doing now.

dont date her???

maybe

why???

i scare i face her, she turn much more stranger T.T

do u heart pain???

yes, but i rather she hate me more

bee i always waiting for u to come back.

i really wanna chase u back

i wan....i wan....i wan....

we been leave each other for 8 days

599

i life start with u gather

<a song mean my heart^^>( click and listen this song )
wat u doing leh?
wat u thinking leh?

are u lonly?
are u boring?

did u take care urself?
did u take ur meal?
did u enough money to buy stuff?

where u going?
where u work?
where are u?

do u miss me？
do u need me?
do u think of me?

a love tat i waiting,
a love tat i wish too,
a love tat i wanna have,

memory i re flash back
memory i miss
memory i worth with




at facebook, i will start writing with chinese,
at i'm vic will write with english
at  blog i will write my true heart word, stress, life let u come back see me this owner^^

bee... i love u,
i sure will promise and make the dream, and wish tat with u gather^^

a shop belong to us
a name tat carry on with this 3 year memory
a sales will tell them by us
a ring will tell them i have been marry^^

a song let me think back us

< A song belong our memory > ( click and listen this song )

i dont noe you will come open my blog and read or not
here only really me
a heart memory tats always belong to u^^

i'm kelvin
21 years old
a new life me^^

but heart house will slowly change into nice view for u to return
but my heart never change^^

wednesday hope u will open mouth talk with me^^
not just answer my question, hope u ask about me^^

i really hope u will return chase me back^^

i dont mind how it happen only back my heart
means i wont mind anything bout u^^

even u wan something from me, lie me, only love me^^
at least my heart still loving u^^

hahhaa i also dont noe wat i'm talking about^^

as long as will go alot place to enjoy, find my secretly love garden that for u^^

a day without a love feeling beside me

today 22 april 2012
family was celebrite with me
when i step in got alot friend was inside tat restaurant

firstly my feel just normal
cause i missing some feeling
when always this view should have a better girl beside me
tats you

today night u call me chat
firstly i been told u how happy am i
yes...it is
but when i see my next sit was empty
than i feel i very lonely and ji mo

mom ask me to sing song
all i choose was a sad song from cry til our love song

family told me alot stuff how they look at u
i was really happy
i so wanna tell u how happy am i

but when we talk phone ur response is nothing just en o or else say nothing
but when i ask u question
dont noe i got listen wrong or not
i so wanna say baby
thanks for everyday reflash back our memory
really, even u will look back
when u lonely still have them with u

but me??? i'm lonely just have ur picture tat u give me from firstly
hmmm baby why u dont wan back leh??? u still need me wow????

hmmm even u boring also dont wan find me le????
hmmm even u wan out also dont wan date me????

izzit i didnt apper ur front u only noe how much important am i inside ur heart???

alot question.... willing tell me all the answer????

i wait ur consider answer...

i always love u
when u need my hug my smell my body everything i gave it to u ba

cause u only can have it^^

time been past so long

we been past so long
and i have put u alone face all the love journey
i been meet u a great wife that i been ask for marry me^^ at 2010^^
amanda aw wai ling is my first wife also is my last wife^^

do u noe why?
she is a fat, nice girl
even she thin i also love she fat^^
cause nice hug^^
but most good is i can hug her up
with my 50kg = =
hahaha

another most great news is we been together 3 years　^^

this is wat we are^^
a puppy life husband and wife^^

hahaha
got the feeling???

the thing i promise

i promise u
i will everytime upgrade my blog^^

i really miss u beside me...
i really miss u love me...
i really miss u hug me...

but i noe u need more care and love^^

but i tell u wat...
dear miss the time with u^^
cause a warm smile from u i really feel happy

even like today
19/4/2012 - bukit raja jusco (mcd)
i saw u again....
i can close with u again^^
i everytime give u money cause i wan u eat, top up, can go out eat nice food^^
i care ur stomach
i care ur healthy^^

hahaha
but sad is we been break^^
but i noe we just pull far bit distance
very fast can return back^^

so i wait u o^^
1/5/2012 our promise^^
i wait ur answer o^^

love you deep always