Cry For SSSS 691

this few day i been alone cry at corner side...

feeling so stress with parent, and job

over stress, need some one hug me...

its been really long time dont have a person hug me....

the feeling its been gone seen the time my birth.


nowadays no one noe my real birth.

its a really bad memory,

by the way. come back to wat i gonna write from now

its really stress with life.

body keep pain,

hmmm... i keep think, if i really die, what happen on u?


no one keep looking your Facebook,
no one keep missing you
no one keep let you think of it,
no one will appear in your life again
no one will think back the past love memory,
no one will re flash your picture.


all is kelvin will gone...



this few day i keep thinking on this question.
will you really forget kelvin?
will you really forget about his everything?
will you really forget all the past with him?

alot lot question.



alot thing like you say...have change...

am i change?
am i still the one you noe?

seriously say... my memory day by day its gone some past view...

hmmm

how u change with?
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my life change, but my character never change b4

izzit really sad with it???

break with guiz, parent scold.

haizzzz..... control control control....

never happy b4... wearing a mask its really tired with...

feel wanna die...

life is seriously meanness!!!!!!!!!!

when i feel free i will write again blog...

miss you mummyT.T

so wanna you stay beside me hmmm.....

journey 690

i been back malaysian for 5 days... now have break up with guiz...

but still left 4 gf haven break hahaha...

= =

i been open a factory at malaysian also...
just behind jusco...

and than the page i created for u??
have u seen???

how was it... and i have graduate cilantro as well...
have the result and certificate as well

hmmm..... and design at the one academy i now having exam...

after tat i will fly back to london again...

but kinda crazy... london and malaysia in month fly twice = =

take away will be close...

i think u saw also... seen u have go ss15 there^^

memory all will stop at last...

just will keep deeply inside my heart...

mummy i miss u alot ^^

but sad is... the girl is not u^^

hahaha

so stupid... as long as this blog can show really i'm^^



k la... i need to go bye

薰衣草の秘密屋 lavender cottage 689

http://www.facebook.com/Donzmemories

first day at London, nothing much different^^

i started my own shop

name as lavender cottage,

i become a real chef at London,

grandmon support me to open a shop,

this shop full with purple color and Lavender Essential Oils

a small lavender garden,

weather here very cold as well,

lavender easy to grows up

i been open a facebook page,

today just open it,

i'm sure will use chinese,

i noe u got ur way to find the word meanings^^

i miss u,

now i will busy to bulid my new shop

when done i take picture for u to look on it^^

i throw all my money at here...

love you mummy  

Time TO BACK 674

hmmm i going back to london...

grandmom been ask me back...

i will leave everything at here...

start my new life^^


at here alot sad stuff happen with me...

sick til go hospital...

just make others worry...

just make myself gone...

its better for them...

parent will stay at malaysian...

i will back london alone...

gather with grandmom...



i day by day keep see ur facebook....

its seen u really happy with it...

he treat u alot...
and buy alot stuff for you...

and seen u with sally more closer...

alot...

and u change ur chinese name as well

is good to you...


i hope u can get a nive husband....

darryl will replace me...

^^

good bye amanda...

i will keep update my blog with long long once...



this year is my last year^^


u really love hiim alot... i glade it...

u finally put me down from ur heart^^


for me???

hmmm u still is my first place^^

bye...

the new job u enter 669

i hear my friend u join model...

hmmm teacher take over ur class.

wish u good luck...
ur wish been come true

and sorry block u from facebook...

cause i been wanna quiet facebook....

will be wont on again....

its seen ur new bf very love u.

summore is ur perfect bf...

hope u happy with it

666 a bad mood day

today i really bad mood on it...
i dont noe why...
such no mood on it...
feel wan be alone...
even through didnt find anyone else for chat

haizzzz

i wan alone....
really wan...

i hate love already...

damn hate....

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

been past few month 664

have past few month... finally saw ur blog...
hmmm

u have been single again...
hope ur mr right can be appear in right time for u

errr... if u got read my blog i really hope u dont dye ur hair...
i really love now u have de hair colour and long...
just go do curve than enough le...

if really wan dye can try brown orange
will make u turn more energy and perfect

^^

mummy i so miss u... i stress with this love le... can i dont continue???
i and her everyday argue... everyday .... feel wan die...
i keep wearing the mask...
hmmm

not the kelvin u noe...

haizz....

i love you... always

long term didnt update

hv been listen to u go love her, but heart still cant forget u

hmmm... nowadays keep argue... i been tired on it...

soon i will change my job....
go earn more money, mr wish been work success on it
its nothing big deal

lavender at penang business really bad... cause summer day no one wanna have dish
but big sales is the mushroom soup with coconut juice ^^
i make it got story between us ^^

its make me really happy with it...

everyday i sleep with her i open eye or close eye just image tat is u
so silly hahaha

even i tell her use this shampoo or body shampoo is lavender...
same tat wat u love to us on it^^

i slowly make her like u^^

but really stress with her....
no freedom... no longer my parent will ask me marry with her...

tat wat i say bout contract hahahaha

but i still miss u hmmm
really miss and love

mummy how is ur life turns off?
izzit good or bad?
izzit wat u choose is right choice?

hmmm
daddy always will wait u...

marry this stuff i wont make it so fast happen at least u marry first^^


648

the last sms u reply

last time meet u at take away klang, its really happy see u,
but later we been argue again

since tat time start i plan to make u disappointed on me fully give up
its really heart pain with it

but no choice, i plan tell all the lie with my second time for u

tat is act my girlfriend sms u and scold u,
lie tat i telling her all ur story,
but real answer is she dont noe what happen on it

so i say wanna protect tat guy so i let it be^^


hope u take care urself and dont have accident again...
its really worry for me...

i wont forget u^^
forever

amanda... u really mean to me...

i not play i not fool around...

i just do wat u wan for it...

from first day til now still the same thing...


all i promise u and buy stuff for u...

all its at my home...
cause i wan when u marry me... all will appear in front u...

but now i only can is keep it for memory forever^^

i still will secretly loving u, and looking at u like wat u love me last time...

be a blog fans.... i be ur true fans love^^


love u.. and miss u

any update... i will post by here
even handphone change or wat...

a stress month bout u

this month u been alot stress but anyway thanks for finding me this x^^

but u dont noe how to say, a answer that for me is i'm not the heart guy already, so dont hv the mood to tell
if u find ur bf i think u will be tell out easily, cause u found a guy tat can speak out with everything

this is wat i'm thinking for

for me
this is my number 11 x been break with me hahaha
how sad was it,

than other way i found another girl with today

how silly am i, haiz
today break today couple

reason break easy : dont noe wat i wan, wat i need, wat i wanna do, and last thing very important, dont noe wat i'm thinking,

how bad am i...

i think u been long time didnt read my blog, all is sherene read on it
but never mind i still write out

cause promise is promise,

nowadays my business been open alot branch out there
now togather couple with a same job girls, call guiz, 19 years old, klang

same like u, love make up, love wearing sexy, but very pooor

bad thing is, she doesnt like baby, even marry = =
hahaha

both of us can say is no point are the same,
with her i can feel u beside me,


tat day we go kp, when back tat time, we hold hand, until we pass throught the indian street,
i think back the feel, i really feel tat is u, very quite and hold my hand, than i beg got firework come out pls

than very disappointed, is dont hv...

hmmm.... amanda i really very miss u, and love u.... haiz
even i cant lie myself, everyone just feel i finding replacement, but i'm not,

argggggggggggg........

i'm stress with love T.T

no one hug , just hanging my smile at there... ishhhh.....

when back tat time just think back alot stuff.... between u and me,

but bad stuff is, u dont hv feel with me anymore, hmmmm

day by day keep looking ur facebook.

dont noe why, maybe is appart of me...



wish u ba.... this i only can say...

wish u have a good relationship...

this few days been over busy

641

641- dont noe is who read my blog with so much time.i hope is the one i thinking....
this few days been drink alot beer and wine out there
with alot customer.... even everyday drunk on it....

just working all the time.. no time for out and sleep
been 5 days never sleep at all... just for 1 or 2 hour

this few days weather is very hot... make me keep head pain till eat panadol straight finish whole roll on it

nothing much to say

i just noe alot days u been finally give up me^^
no find me no think bout me^^

but got one thing is really bad
until noe still got alot friend and relative ask why we break hahaha

i been break with 11 girls out there all no feel
only one left....
she alsoo keep think negative on it...
both of us been alot day didnt out... even meet also no

hmmm feel both of us been pulling fall...

and ur blog didnt update on it...
mean u nothing to say bout it...

hahhaaaha

day by day still hope u will find a better guy than me
and day by day i still everyday think bout u
wallet still have ur picture, ring still wear at my necklace...
and ur photo still keep inside my phone hahaha
so silly bout me this stupid guy

hmmmm

family been slowly hate me....the way i act
still argue bout mooney
so hope i can die on it....
than all money will transfer for u

haizzzz...... stress bout this life....
why i wan change???
so fucking stupid lool....

haizzzz

i feel wanna keep the one u noe me from first day til last day we break.

i hate being rich, no friend no gain...
not cause i have money all wont come friend with me
all wearing fucking mask
shit and bull shit

haizzzz

stressssssss so hope u beside me and help me slove my stress
only u noe how to helping me to cool down on it

wait my next note ba.... dont noe when only can update blog

a day call blue

today i first time been reading for 12 hours, since morning 10 to 10
its read bout a love being miss with <3

is really so meanful...
a love been regret to let go, doesnt mean is the end of world,
is just started with real life,

today got new stuff work, make me so stress with,
others stuff is i need work for 6 days with 12 hour hahaha
like this can stop me thinking of u^^

another thing can make me tired most

dont noe how are u been this few days,
dont moody anymore^^
u still got heng seng this bro with u^^
daniel, slowly didnt find u, but i think he will date u as well
chong zai, still love u, he is a good guy,
i think he can give u a true love^^ and happy

just hope u can go with worth life, and slowly forget bout me^^

i noe u always doing wat^^
cause i still got friend telling me,

at least i happy listen the good news^^

where u work, just need careful, if stress find friend out also can^^

if drink beer just slowly drink dont drunk ba^^

take picture with happy smile^^

tat is ur true smile^^ and mood

hahahaha....

now me just single and playboy around with girls,
dont dare wan have true love le, and dont wan hurt others le hahaha

cause i before telling them or couple, i just say i'm playboy, and will flirt around with girls, are u ok hahhha

dont noe why they still wan with me hahaha
izzit they stupid or dump???

hahahaha

k ba, wish u find a true love, let ur family an ding xia lai, and since ur chinese been improve jor^^
noe how to read with word le^^

hahaha

wish u ba^^ dont think me this useless guy le^^
i'm not a boy tat u wan on it^^

633

Lavender Memory

i been rebuild our page,
its cover with lavender love purple.

and i'm sorry make u hate me,
this the only way to make u wont miss me.

i really love u deeply,
i cant ever let u go away from my heart

as i say: u always is my wife.


i noe today is ur last day work.
futher future i dont noe where u work, where u go.

i still will try my best to find u out

hmmm....
i cant hold ur soul.

and i never think negative on u,
i just wan make u angry at me hate at me, leave me far apart.
like this u only can start a true love ^^

am i bad? or am i stupid really?

even sha gua scold me, i also must do on it^^

i noe this is the best way for u to give up me^^

hahaha

from tat day u sms say think of me i really very happy,
after tat i noe u will go see my facebook

than i go drink beer hahaha
make me drunk for two days^^

hahahaha

mummy my heart still love u, at least i can stand behind u hide it up and love u^^

i with her say seriously, i didnt feel anything, even love or sex,
my heart no more^^

hahaha
now become a cold blood person,
just go pei he wat she love hahhaha

i just need a hug only ^^

i noe u cant give me anymore,
cause u trying a new love rite now^^

hahahaha
T.T

miss u, i will wait for u

is the page^^
https://www.facebook.com/pages/Lavender-Memory-Prince-Lavender-%E8%96%B0%E8%A1%A3%E8%8D%89/298344260252317

632

the place u go with alot guy no girls

i so worry u
u been go beer factory with guys
no girls
will u safe??
will u drunk??


i worry huhuhuhuhu

who can help me

i dont noe how jor...

mummy can u dont turn so bad???
can u dont keep try beer???
can u dont make urself  like tat

argggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
618

a promise that i cant carry on

i worry really worry
izzit i will turn back last 3 years tat u never meet me before tat life???

today i suddenly bust out my soul
i keep nightmare and nightmare

i dont noe how to release my stress,
i dont noe how

today i back from work
i drive to crazy fast
200 plus,
15 min reach klang house,

i so wanna let car bang me,
at least i can "sleep"
how i wanna keep on going???

i wan u lock me and control me
mummyT.T
i really miss tat u love me tat feeling, worry me, kiss me, hug me, everything u did to meT.T

huhuhuhu

feel wanna break promise,
so wanna give up,
i wan drink, i wan club, i wan race, i wan smoke, i wan drug,

all i also wan....
i wan turn much more bad life

but i cant, i keep pray for the ring, i must hold it,

but i cry... huhuhuhu

work stress
love stress

i cant give up u ever
caues no one can replace u...

618

missing u

today didnt see u post status,
make me feel no an quan gan,
i dont noe where are u
wat u doing
suddenly feel u disappear from my guardian

mummy, i miss u leh
i worry u also T.T

where u

are u going sector 7 pub???
where u going???

618

day out with friend

hahaha
i got a banch friend from oversea
korean
heng-suan
po-cheung

japanese
sakina
moto-kosin
po-plin

5 of them suddenly ask me out for celebrate my brithday hahaha

they giving me a bigger surprise

tat is date out of 5 person LOL
hahaha

new zeland- my brother^^ kennet
Australia - michelle
london- alin jon
singapore - steven chong and his wife loral

hahhaa

so happy to seen them hahaha

happy leh^^

they summore wanna ask Africa friend ==
but too bad they staying too far on it^^

by the way
dont noe today will u go beer factory...if i not giving money for u, or enough money to eat or not...
hmmmmmmm

worry bout my secretly wife^^

618

a life with a lie

yesterday i sleep and dream always
is same dream appear
when i call u, u like feel i'm annoying ...
soorry for disturb
when i listen u say got alot person chase u,
tat time my tear straight drop,

today my god sis sherene chin help me collect between me and urs picture gather and create as lavender memory

i so thankful to her,
summore she only the one noe my all background^^

my life will have u deeply my heart,
i secretly love u better than we together ba^^

this is the last thing i noe

even i think if one day u sex with future bf, husband
i think they touch u hug u kiss u,
a body belong to me, been touch by others

all this pain, came to my heart

but i noe i cant change anymore^^

only can is shut up and blind

618

grade sharing by u

yesterday we have a mid night chat til u sleep,
i feel i'm like husband teman u sleep
but when u awake, just feel back u so kind like friend talk
i dislike this feel,
hmmm
just feel so mo shen, i really dislike it,

i saw alot person wish u birthday, u sure very happy, tat so many friend willing care u and wishing u

i dont noe i can wait til how long,
i hope is forever

i dislike u say thanks you,
when u wan take money from me,
i felt like so mo sheng,
why our distance been pulliing so far just 17 days

why???why???why???

i love midnight u,
tat care me, i dont noe is using which character
wife??? friend???

can u tell me????

i seriously wan noe the answer

with ur true answer

dont say dont noe, i dislike tat feel....

moo sheng and like friend,

today i will be settle my stuff hope u can pray with wife soul

^^

such a stupid guy,

hmmmm
true word:
i miss u beside me, dear feel lonely,
really so lonely,
i need ur love force to encouraging me

bee, when u visit our house again???
dear been guardian our lavender tea at take away for 3 years le

mummy, i need u.... can u feel me???
can u feel when i nightmare i really need u...
hmmmm T.T

i love you deeply, really... we fight for future gather using our love lavender tiamo life

will u?

614

this year birthday i cant celebrite for u

is me again

this year i cant celebrite for u,
cause u been date for out,
even i got chance,
i also wont date u
tomorrow i will be go a place
for 3 days

at least i can send a birthday song for u and wish u
the perfume i can feel someone sure will give u
if really dont have only ask from me

happy birthday mummy

this 3 days i think u wont find me
hahaha

and facebook i think also cant view me,

i just be a angel or demon in this world
take care urself

i been break the contract so i need to go fulfill it
wat its take from breaking

i will been in jail for 3 days
tats why i wish u and sing to u^^

k la, i need go le^^

i love you bee, miss u always
enjoy the life ba

612

3 days didnt blog

hmmm this few days noe u went to frezer hill
u take alot picture can see u enjoy the trip
u been when throught alot

but until today just now, saw u post couple hmmm
i think alot, izzit got someone chase u???
are u love him???

but i'm still single and waiting for it^^
i will do wat my parent say
try my best to chase u back once again
no matter how u going suffer with me again
but i will give u the best
like last time,

but i will be a good husband lol
a give u welfare money life^^


hmmm
this few days out with friend
but bad news is i still cant control the drug feel
sometime really need u beside me
let me hug all that

but i noe is cant
u leave

we been break for 14days
i been nightmare for tat long
hmmm
i keep dream u been run away from my dream
i chase til tired
but i still chase

when i awake always is 4 o'clock and 6 o'clock

but i need to tahan dont find u until u find me.

i miss u mummy, i really love u deep



do u?
i noe again u not love me,wont with me again ....

cause ur parent no matter how i change u still wont accept me....

haizzzzzzz

610

today she wish me

i dont noe why she wish me when next 3 days i wanna marry
seriously i really turn sad, turn unhappy

but i wan let u noe... i wont marry again, i just will love u and waiting u alone
and i dont noe why u will angry me for wat lol

i just wan u tell me please dont marry can u?
i just wan this answer.... why i cant get it from u

bee i really miss u care me protect me lol

my heart one by one really no mood again lol

i wan when u call me use wife voice talk to me again lol

bee can u???

i wan the warm feeling, not the cold feeling

i miss u alot

a ring tat i wear^^

thanks for reject me^^

but this time i really let u aloone le

i cant continue protect u le^^

when u need dear beside i'm not beside le

remember o... my heart never let u alone

cause i still loving u deep

i really will miss u

bee

u noe u need me
u noe u care me
u noe u miss me

but i dont noe why all this i feel tat u loving me still

haizzzzzz.......u think u not love me than no love ba^^

let u hate me ba
u wan how than how ba
u treat me cold than cold ba

as long as... kelvin never appear ur front anymore^^
when u see me not the last time kelvin le
is forget who u are de kelvin le

if u cry mean u still love me
if u no cry means u not love me le^^

this is love reaction when u missng some one u love in ur life u will cry

bee
now u noe why i will take back watch ring and picture le ma?

i need u
i care u
i wan u
do u marry me?
do u love me?
do u need me in ur life?
do u need my smile that apper ur life?

i noe all is no^^

is ok... hahaha

after 12 o'clock, i return a blank guy
if u love me, than marry me....
find back oour love soul

i noe no again^^

hahahaha

so stupid i am

hahahhaa

k ba........ bye my most loove in this world de amanda^^

i going surgery le^^

say bye bye to ur kelvin lover ba^^

all 3 years memory will gone le^^

why i'm crying hahaha

stupid^^

bye

603

a surgery today is brain

my brain surgery maybe will lost ur memory,
this i ask for it^^

but u rather i forget u...
actually i wan u to take care me, and love me back,
try to make me think back u once again....

today the surgery is brain, maybe will forget our memory
i dont noe what will happen to u and me

i really forget le...
u must take care urself really nicely...
ur body stand as my body le...
ur heart stand as my heart
ur soul stand as our family soul

son call vic ( 3 years old)
daughter call gwen (5 yeard old）

hahaha.... i wan close u cause i wan u back ben dan...
i wan u beside me like wife take care me

this maybe is my last blog le gua
cause today finish work i will go pahang le^^

wish u have a good life,
money if u wan can sms me... my assistance will bank to u^^

dont worry
if i didnt lose memory i still choosing wait for u
if i really forget it, but my heart still have u also^^

bee i really happy with u gather eat^^
i choose didnt tell u caues i wan u noe i dont wan u woorry it^^

i marry le
my wife is amanda aw wai ling^^
so my wait for u to return again^^

i love you^^
dear kelvin ur lover


memory tiamo lavender
dont noe i sleep surgery can dream u or not leh...
or i can dream lavender^^

if i dont hve life back^^
i hope u can stay wit my sooul^^

this time i really got danger with surgery le^^

i noe u wont worry me le^^
but i noe u still love me^^
just wan stay far from me,
cause u dont have a true smile with u
even with ur friend^^

but i tell u i wan u keep album cause i write de stuff same as the couple picture^^

all picture i have keep^^
when i awake my assistance will sms u^^
tell u what happen on me^^

if dont wan she wont reply le^^


love you, my mummy^^
this time is my last time calling u le








god: pls dont let my girl sad alone, let her find a true love with rich and she love her as well^^
but i hope if can i wan change my soul to give her good life^^
if can i wan change my memory to let her freedom without suffer with our memory^^



bee" i wan u keep album cause i wan u keep our memory, when he bully u take out see me ba^^
if really wan back to me, my banting house always free for u to come in^^
mucksss^^

last blog loving u, missss u , always love u, my amanda aw wai ling.

i will write my blog password and facebok at dairy, when i awake at least i can open it our memory^^
if i lost memory^^




bee love u remember.... dont do a work tat about wine or beer, i dislike my wife wear too sexy let others see, i rather u wear it nicely and be with u^^

remember wat u are promise me, u didnt change just need care and friend beside^^

if got anything u change pls let me noe k^^
sms me or call me^^

602

go Hospital near Pahang River Pahang for small surgery

brain- brain got a black dot, tat is a cancer, but can cure easily ...tat dot make my eye cant see clear
backbone- nerve collection having problem, need readjust, and need injection with 17cm into backbone put medicine damnnn pain

finger need massage but is pulling finger very hard huhuhuhuhu

this the report from the hospital...

so backbone cant recover much,
brain can cure clear
finger cant cure anymore


reason:
working over night, didnt let brain eye finger body rest well, always standing and drive car with long timer, brain cause hit some sharp part,
finger is tat time at chef college the sugar kena so make no energy anymore, cant carry heavy stuff, so will make it shaking... need sleep more

sick- 4days didnt go see doctor = =
cof til wan vomit: hou long got one bijik stuff inside,, need take out, but hard

brain surgery: danger only got 40%
finger: cant cure
body backbone: 30% danger

so this is my report le, hmmm

body getting bad hahaha^^

happy call 1.20am

just now u suddenly call me i really happy with.....

i go pahang for body check up.....

dont worry i wont do bad stuff or leave u alone in this world

hmmm bee... dont moody with ur life le k^^

i can hear for it... ur sound unhappy with it....

and make sure u really take good care urself....

dont like me.... alot sick jor^^

ben dan i love you^^

dont treat me cold....

i will scare this feeling

and always will come u back home

600

doctor report

today i go pahang actually is go do body check up

firstly at subang check

backbone -injury ( muscle pulling the bone down) if no surgery will make backbone cant even ban
eye - eye almost cant see when 4 years past...( white ball cells is decrease, cause of working)
finger -keep shaking more worst...hand slowly turn cold
brain- easy to forget last few hour stuff
blood- not very active

so they ask me go pahang check using machine
hopefully can come back early meet u^^

Feeling Stranger

we been long time didnt sms each,
today i sms u, when we talk just can feel u dislike touching phone anymore...

hmmm.... been read ur blog as well... i feel u more lonely... i feel to hug u quiet

u make til urself much more lonely...

why my sweet heart choose this way...

i noe money really important with...

but now u become money more important than love even take over ur soul

bee i hope u can return to our warm house...

i rather u back... dont wan u cold at outside...

tomorrow i date her out for lunch,

to take back our memory

1st anniversary ring

couple picture

and two watch

ring i wan take back is i wanna wear it tell other i'm marry

couple picture is keep inside my wallet

two watch is i wanna have the feel she beside me

cause she wear before touch before

hope tomorrow we wont quiet 

at least she talk to me and asking me

if not i scare i will wanna hug her and ask her back again...

cause i  over love her... until i can stay behind and protect her

am i stupid???

yes i am, this the one who call kelvin tan chin hock

why i wanna do this???

cause i wan bring her back home once again

but she wan alone???

yes i noe, but i wan give her warm again

but u noe wont success right???

yes i noe, at least i try all my best

why???

no why, just love her

all this question my friend keep asking me...

they just telling me...

this girl will be regret tat giving up this guy who call kelvin tan chin hock

but i tell them

i'm the one who wrong,

just noe how to earn money

without care my wife,

let her alone staying at house lonely until she really need me

where am i???

working, sleep

i such a fucker, u all noe it???

i'm not a good boyfriend tat wat she love...

should i slowly let her go???

cause i noe she wont back again T.T

i telling myself alot time

wat should i do???

dont view her facebook???

i cant do it, i miss her much, over care

dont find her???

i cant i wan noe wat she doing now.

dont date her???

maybe

why???

i scare i face her, she turn much more stranger T.T

do u heart pain???

yes, but i rather she hate me more

bee i always waiting for u to come back.

i really wanna chase u back

i wan....i wan....i wan....

we been leave each other for 8 days

599

i life start with u gather

<a song mean my heart^^>( click and listen this song )
wat u doing leh?
wat u thinking leh?

are u lonly?
are u boring?

did u take care urself?
did u take ur meal?
did u enough money to buy stuff?

where u going?
where u work?
where are u?

do u miss me？
do u need me?
do u think of me?

a love tat i waiting,
a love tat i wish too,
a love tat i wanna have,

memory i re flash back
memory i miss
memory i worth with




at facebook, i will start writing with chinese,
at i'm vic will write with english
at  blog i will write my true heart word, stress, life let u come back see me this owner^^

bee... i love u,
i sure will promise and make the dream, and wish tat with u gather^^

a shop belong to us
a name tat carry on with this 3 year memory
a sales will tell them by us
a ring will tell them i have been marry^^

a song let me think back us

< A song belong our memory > ( click and listen this song )

i dont noe you will come open my blog and read or not
here only really me
a heart memory tats always belong to u^^

i'm kelvin
21 years old
a new life me^^

but heart house will slowly change into nice view for u to return
but my heart never change^^

wednesday hope u will open mouth talk with me^^
not just answer my question, hope u ask about me^^

i really hope u will return chase me back^^

i dont mind how it happen only back my heart
means i wont mind anything bout u^^

even u wan something from me, lie me, only love me^^
at least my heart still loving u^^

hahhaa i also dont noe wat i'm talking about^^

as long as will go alot place to enjoy, find my secretly love garden that for u^^

a day without a love feeling beside me

today 22 april 2012
family was celebrite with me
when i step in got alot friend was inside tat restaurant

firstly my feel just normal
cause i missing some feeling
when always this view should have a better girl beside me
tats you

today night u call me chat
firstly i been told u how happy am i
yes...it is
but when i see my next sit was empty
than i feel i very lonely and ji mo

mom ask me to sing song
all i choose was a sad song from cry til our love song

family told me alot stuff how they look at u
i was really happy
i so wanna tell u how happy am i

but when we talk phone ur response is nothing just en o or else say nothing
but when i ask u question
dont noe i got listen wrong or not
i so wanna say baby
thanks for everyday reflash back our memory
really, even u will look back
when u lonely still have them with u

but me??? i'm lonely just have ur picture tat u give me from firstly
hmmm baby why u dont wan back leh??? u still need me wow????

hmmm even u boring also dont wan find me le????
hmmm even u wan out also dont wan date me????

izzit i didnt apper ur front u only noe how much important am i inside ur heart???

alot question.... willing tell me all the answer????

i wait ur consider answer...

i always love u
when u need my hug my smell my body everything i gave it to u ba

cause u only can have it^^

time been past so long

we been past so long
and i have put u alone face all the love journey
i been meet u a great wife that i been ask for marry me^^ at 2010^^
amanda aw wai ling is my first wife also is my last wife^^

do u noe why?
she is a fat, nice girl
even she thin i also love she fat^^
cause nice hug^^
but most good is i can hug her up
with my 50kg = =
hahaha

another most great news is we been together 3 years　^^

this is wat we are^^
a puppy life husband and wife^^

hahaha
got the feeling???

the thing i promise

i promise u
i will everytime upgrade my blog^^

i really miss u beside me...
i really miss u love me...
i really miss u hug me...

but i noe u need more care and love^^

but i tell u wat...
dear miss the time with u^^
cause a warm smile from u i really feel happy

even like today
19/4/2012 - bukit raja jusco (mcd)
i saw u again....
i can close with u again^^
i everytime give u money cause i wan u eat, top up, can go out eat nice food^^
i care ur stomach
i care ur healthy^^

hahaha
but sad is we been break^^
but i noe we just pull far bit distance
very fast can return back^^

so i wait u o^^
1/5/2012 our promise^^
i wait ur answer o^^

love you deep always