this few days been over busy

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641- dont noe is who read my blog with so much time.i hope is the one i thinking....
this few days been drink alot beer and wine out there
with alot customer.... even everyday drunk on it....

just working all the time.. no time for out and sleep
been 5 days never sleep at all... just for 1 or 2 hour

this few days weather is very hot... make me keep head pain till eat panadol straight finish whole roll on it

nothing much to say

i just noe alot days u been finally give up me^^
no find me no think bout me^^

but got one thing is really bad
until noe still got alot friend and relative ask why we break hahaha

i been break with 11 girls out there all no feel
only one left....
she alsoo keep think negative on it...
both of us been alot day didnt out... even meet also no

hmmm feel both of us been pulling fall...

and ur blog didnt update on it...
mean u nothing to say bout it...

hahhaaaha

day by day still hope u will find a better guy than me
and day by day i still everyday think bout u
wallet still have ur picture, ring still wear at my necklace...
and ur photo still keep inside my phone hahaha
so silly bout me this stupid guy

hmmmm

family been slowly hate me....the way i act
still argue bout mooney
so hope i can die on it....
than all money will transfer for u

haizzzz...... stress bout this life....
why i wan change???
so fucking stupid lool....

haizzzz

i feel wanna keep the one u noe me from first day til last day we break.

i hate being rich, no friend no gain...
not cause i have money all wont come friend with me
all wearing fucking mask
shit and bull shit

haizzzz

stressssssss so hope u beside me and help me slove my stress
only u noe how to helping me to cool down on it

wait my next note ba.... dont noe when only can update blog

a day call blue

today i first time been reading for 12 hours, since morning 10 to 10
its read bout a love being miss with <3

is really so meanful...
a love been regret to let go, doesnt mean is the end of world,
is just started with real life,

today got new stuff work, make me so stress with,
others stuff is i need work for 6 days with 12 hour hahaha
like this can stop me thinking of u^^

another thing can make me tired most

dont noe how are u been this few days,
dont moody anymore^^
u still got heng seng this bro with u^^
daniel, slowly didnt find u, but i think he will date u as well
chong zai, still love u, he is a good guy,
i think he can give u a true love^^ and happy

just hope u can go with worth life, and slowly forget bout me^^

i noe u always doing wat^^
cause i still got friend telling me,

at least i happy listen the good news^^

where u work, just need careful, if stress find friend out also can^^

if drink beer just slowly drink dont drunk ba^^

take picture with happy smile^^

tat is ur true smile^^ and mood

hahahaha....

now me just single and playboy around with girls,
dont dare wan have true love le, and dont wan hurt others le hahaha

cause i before telling them or couple, i just say i'm playboy, and will flirt around with girls, are u ok hahhha

dont noe why they still wan with me hahaha
izzit they stupid or dump???

hahahaha

k ba, wish u find a true love, let ur family an ding xia lai, and since ur chinese been improve jor^^
noe how to read with word le^^

hahaha

wish u ba^^ dont think me this useless guy le^^
i'm not a boy tat u wan on it^^

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Lavender Memory

i been rebuild our page,
its cover with lavender love purple.

and i'm sorry make u hate me,
this the only way to make u wont miss me.

i really love u deeply,
i cant ever let u go away from my heart

as i say: u always is my wife.


i noe today is ur last day work.
futher future i dont noe where u work, where u go.

i still will try my best to find u out

hmmm....
i cant hold ur soul.

and i never think negative on u,
i just wan make u angry at me hate at me, leave me far apart.
like this u only can start a true love ^^

am i bad? or am i stupid really?

even sha gua scold me, i also must do on it^^

i noe this is the best way for u to give up me^^

hahaha

from tat day u sms say think of me i really very happy,
after tat i noe u will go see my facebook

than i go drink beer hahaha
make me drunk for two days^^

hahahaha

mummy my heart still love u, at least i can stand behind u hide it up and love u^^

i with her say seriously, i didnt feel anything, even love or sex,
my heart no more^^

hahaha
now become a cold blood person,
just go pei he wat she love hahhaha

i just need a hug only ^^

i noe u cant give me anymore,
cause u trying a new love rite now^^

hahahaha
T.T

miss u, i will wait for u

is the page^^
https://www.facebook.com/pages/Lavender-Memory-Prince-Lavender-%E8%96%B0%E8%A1%A3%E8%8D%89/298344260252317

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the place u go with alot guy no girls

i so worry u
u been go beer factory with guys
no girls
will u safe??
will u drunk??


i worry huhuhuhuhu

who can help me

i dont noe how jor...

mummy can u dont turn so bad???
can u dont keep try beer???
can u dont make urself  like tat

argggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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a promise that i cant carry on

i worry really worry
izzit i will turn back last 3 years tat u never meet me before tat life???

today i suddenly bust out my soul
i keep nightmare and nightmare

i dont noe how to release my stress,
i dont noe how

today i back from work
i drive to crazy fast
200 plus,
15 min reach klang house,

i so wanna let car bang me,
at least i can "sleep"
how i wanna keep on going???

i wan u lock me and control me
mummyT.T
i really miss tat u love me tat feeling, worry me, kiss me, hug me, everything u did to meT.T

huhuhuhu

feel wanna break promise,
so wanna give up,
i wan drink, i wan club, i wan race, i wan smoke, i wan drug,

all i also wan....
i wan turn much more bad life

but i cant, i keep pray for the ring, i must hold it,

but i cry... huhuhuhu

work stress
love stress

i cant give up u ever
caues no one can replace u...

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missing u

today didnt see u post status,
make me feel no an quan gan,
i dont noe where are u
wat u doing
suddenly feel u disappear from my guardian

mummy, i miss u leh
i worry u also T.T

where u

are u going sector 7 pub???
where u going???

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day out with friend

hahaha
i got a banch friend from oversea
korean
heng-suan
po-cheung

japanese
sakina
moto-kosin
po-plin

5 of them suddenly ask me out for celebrate my brithday hahaha

they giving me a bigger surprise

tat is date out of 5 person LOL
hahaha

new zeland- my brother^^ kennet
Australia - michelle
london- alin jon
singapore - steven chong and his wife loral

hahhaa

so happy to seen them hahaha

happy leh^^

they summore wanna ask Africa friend ==
but too bad they staying too far on it^^

by the way
dont noe today will u go beer factory...if i not giving money for u, or enough money to eat or not...
hmmmmmmm

worry bout my secretly wife^^

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a life with a lie

yesterday i sleep and dream always
is same dream appear
when i call u, u like feel i'm annoying ...
soorry for disturb
when i listen u say got alot person chase u,
tat time my tear straight drop,

today my god sis sherene chin help me collect between me and urs picture gather and create as lavender memory

i so thankful to her,
summore she only the one noe my all background^^

my life will have u deeply my heart,
i secretly love u better than we together ba^^

this is the last thing i noe

even i think if one day u sex with future bf, husband
i think they touch u hug u kiss u,
a body belong to me, been touch by others

all this pain, came to my heart

but i noe i cant change anymore^^

only can is shut up and blind

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grade sharing by u

yesterday we have a mid night chat til u sleep,
i feel i'm like husband teman u sleep
but when u awake, just feel back u so kind like friend talk
i dislike this feel,
hmmm
just feel so mo shen, i really dislike it,

i saw alot person wish u birthday, u sure very happy, tat so many friend willing care u and wishing u

i dont noe i can wait til how long,
i hope is forever

i dislike u say thanks you,
when u wan take money from me,
i felt like so mo sheng,
why our distance been pulliing so far just 17 days

why???why???why???

i love midnight u,
tat care me, i dont noe is using which character
wife??? friend???

can u tell me????

i seriously wan noe the answer

with ur true answer

dont say dont noe, i dislike tat feel....

moo sheng and like friend,

today i will be settle my stuff hope u can pray with wife soul

^^

such a stupid guy,

hmmmm
true word:
i miss u beside me, dear feel lonely,
really so lonely,
i need ur love force to encouraging me

bee, when u visit our house again???
dear been guardian our lavender tea at take away for 3 years le

mummy, i need u.... can u feel me???
can u feel when i nightmare i really need u...
hmmmm T.T

i love you deeply, really... we fight for future gather using our love lavender tiamo life

will u?

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this year birthday i cant celebrite for u

is me again

this year i cant celebrite for u,
cause u been date for out,
even i got chance,
i also wont date u
tomorrow i will be go a place
for 3 days

at least i can send a birthday song for u and wish u
the perfume i can feel someone sure will give u
if really dont have only ask from me

happy birthday mummy

this 3 days i think u wont find me
hahaha

and facebook i think also cant view me,

i just be a angel or demon in this world
take care urself

i been break the contract so i need to go fulfill it
wat its take from breaking

i will been in jail for 3 days
tats why i wish u and sing to u^^

k la, i need go le^^

i love you bee, miss u always
enjoy the life ba

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