a ring tat i wear^^

thanks for reject me^^

but this time i really let u aloone le

i cant continue protect u le^^

when u need dear beside i'm not beside le

remember o... my heart never let u alone

cause i still loving u deep

i really will miss u

bee

u noe u need me
u noe u care me
u noe u miss me

but i dont noe why all this i feel tat u loving me still

haizzzzzz.......u think u not love me than no love ba^^

let u hate me ba
u wan how than how ba
u treat me cold than cold ba

as long as... kelvin never appear ur front anymore^^
when u see me not the last time kelvin le
is forget who u are de kelvin le

if u cry mean u still love me
if u no cry means u not love me le^^

this is love reaction when u missng some one u love in ur life u will cry

bee
now u noe why i will take back watch ring and picture le ma?

i need u
i care u
i wan u
do u marry me?
do u love me?
do u need me in ur life?
do u need my smile that apper ur life?

i noe all is no^^

is ok... hahaha

after 12 o'clock, i return a blank guy
if u love me, than marry me....
find back oour love soul

i noe no again^^

hahahaha

so stupid i am

hahahhaa

k ba........ bye my most loove in this world de amanda^^

i going surgery le^^

say bye bye to ur kelvin lover ba^^

all 3 years memory will gone le^^

why i'm crying hahaha

stupid^^

bye

603

a surgery today is brain

my brain surgery maybe will lost ur memory,
this i ask for it^^

but u rather i forget u...
actually i wan u to take care me, and love me back,
try to make me think back u once again....

today the surgery is brain, maybe will forget our memory
i dont noe what will happen to u and me

i really forget le...
u must take care urself really nicely...
ur body stand as my body le...
ur heart stand as my heart
ur soul stand as our family soul

son call vic ( 3 years old)
daughter call gwen (5 yeard old）

hahaha.... i wan close u cause i wan u back ben dan...
i wan u beside me like wife take care me

this maybe is my last blog le gua
cause today finish work i will go pahang le^^

wish u have a good life,
money if u wan can sms me... my assistance will bank to u^^

dont worry
if i didnt lose memory i still choosing wait for u
if i really forget it, but my heart still have u also^^

bee i really happy with u gather eat^^
i choose didnt tell u caues i wan u noe i dont wan u woorry it^^

i marry le
my wife is amanda aw wai ling^^
so my wait for u to return again^^

i love you^^
dear kelvin ur lover


memory tiamo lavender
dont noe i sleep surgery can dream u or not leh...
or i can dream lavender^^

if i dont hve life back^^
i hope u can stay wit my sooul^^

this time i really got danger with surgery le^^

i noe u wont worry me le^^
but i noe u still love me^^
just wan stay far from me,
cause u dont have a true smile with u
even with ur friend^^

but i tell u i wan u keep album cause i write de stuff same as the couple picture^^

all picture i have keep^^
when i awake my assistance will sms u^^
tell u what happen on me^^

if dont wan she wont reply le^^


love you, my mummy^^
this time is my last time calling u le








god: pls dont let my girl sad alone, let her find a true love with rich and she love her as well^^
but i hope if can i wan change my soul to give her good life^^
if can i wan change my memory to let her freedom without suffer with our memory^^



bee" i wan u keep album cause i wan u keep our memory, when he bully u take out see me ba^^
if really wan back to me, my banting house always free for u to come in^^
mucksss^^

last blog loving u, missss u , always love u, my amanda aw wai ling.

i will write my blog password and facebok at dairy, when i awake at least i can open it our memory^^
if i lost memory^^




bee love u remember.... dont do a work tat about wine or beer, i dislike my wife wear too sexy let others see, i rather u wear it nicely and be with u^^

remember wat u are promise me, u didnt change just need care and friend beside^^

if got anything u change pls let me noe k^^
sms me or call me^^

602

go Hospital near Pahang River Pahang for small surgery

brain- brain got a black dot, tat is a cancer, but can cure easily ...tat dot make my eye cant see clear
backbone- nerve collection having problem, need readjust, and need injection with 17cm into backbone put medicine damnnn pain

finger need massage but is pulling finger very hard huhuhuhuhu

this the report from the hospital...

so backbone cant recover much,
brain can cure clear
finger cant cure anymore


reason:
working over night, didnt let brain eye finger body rest well, always standing and drive car with long timer, brain cause hit some sharp part,
finger is tat time at chef college the sugar kena so make no energy anymore, cant carry heavy stuff, so will make it shaking... need sleep more

sick- 4days didnt go see doctor = =
cof til wan vomit: hou long got one bijik stuff inside,, need take out, but hard

brain surgery: danger only got 40%
finger: cant cure
body backbone: 30% danger

so this is my report le, hmmm

body getting bad hahaha^^

happy call 1.20am

just now u suddenly call me i really happy with.....

i go pahang for body check up.....

dont worry i wont do bad stuff or leave u alone in this world

hmmm bee... dont moody with ur life le k^^

i can hear for it... ur sound unhappy with it....

and make sure u really take good care urself....

dont like me.... alot sick jor^^

ben dan i love you^^

dont treat me cold....

i will scare this feeling

and always will come u back home

600

doctor report

today i go pahang actually is go do body check up

firstly at subang check

backbone -injury ( muscle pulling the bone down) if no surgery will make backbone cant even ban
eye - eye almost cant see when 4 years past...( white ball cells is decrease, cause of working)
finger -keep shaking more worst...hand slowly turn cold
brain- easy to forget last few hour stuff
blood- not very active

so they ask me go pahang check using machine
hopefully can come back early meet u^^